HuSh BaBy_*x0x

blah blah

2005-02-03T23:55:18Z

phew havent updated in awhile.oh well. um.nothing new. all guys are ASSHOLES =] nd all girls are stupid bitches =] other than that.uhh.pep rally today.fun stuff. my shirt was pimppp =] nd then after school i talked to chris. havent talked to him in awhile so it was good. i was in a real pissed off mood though so i was beatin him..

greendayfan3369: u hit hard my friend
greendayfan3369: lol

lol awh.its all good though. much love to you chris:) had to make sure that was yer name* lol

yeah so its pretty funny how you say you still love me.then find out yer goin out w. another girl.like less than an hour later.wow.thats pretty funny.all good though. <thats to a SPECIAL someone.pff. but yes.im not letting any guy get to me anymore. ima be a strong girl =] haha.but yes my shirt was pimp today.it said this is how we do. nd then said kelly.i didnt mean for it to say this is how we do kelly. nd have like lines to my fanny. someone pointed that out.was pretty humerous though.gotta love it. ive been so pissy this whole month wtf. loll. im so pissy like everyday.im bout ready to fuckin beat someones ass loL. oh well. cant miss more school =/ unfortunatly. im bored! more exciting topic------ um. food coloring? naww..im stumped.peace the fuck outttt___x0

hush_x0x @ 2005-01-16T17:21:00

2005-01-16T22:26:01Z

phewie.havent updated in awhile. good jackie/kelly convo:

xmezsmerizsed: i <3 you Jacklynn Tokarz
Caliibl0nde: jaclynn*
Caliibl0nde: l0lL and i <3 u to0 kelly paraskvein
xmezsmerizsed: I Love You JacLyNN MariE
xmezsmerizsed: ****
Caliibl0nde: skevin*
xmezsmerizsed: i never spell out the whole name.so yanno i dunno how to spell anything but jackie
Caliibl0nde: lol i lL0ve u kelLy mariE:-)
Caliibl0nde: lmfa0
Caliibl0nde: u do0sh

good friends dunno how to spell eachothers names' hahaha good times..well later gaters. i <3 cuppycake soo muchhh

updating

2005-01-14T00:19:16Z

well since im an idiot i fergot my pass. to connect to sbc. so i cant go on at mommy dearests until i call sbc nd get it backk:) which will take forever so i'll put it off for another couple-a days..got my braces off.yay.bout time lol. robbies 4 months was monday.blah.sore subject-moving on. schools just FABOLOUS all our teachers loadin us up w. homework before midterms.wonderful.busy busy busy.anyways. ah its snowing out [just looked out my window] and its soo perrtyyy looks like a snowglobe. wow im gay. but it does! got the new phone.but its gay. it looks like a man phone.which i dont like.blah stupid sprint fuckers! arh it makes me so mad. im in a good mood right now i guess :-D my contacts- dry.hurting my eyes. cuz i went tanning w. them in. oh well.speaking of which ive made time for myself to tan yay! well all for now ima go call francis barash for a hair appt. joy. or amandas salon. w.e they call themselves these days. should i get my nails done? input needed. lol

x3 love

hush_x0x @ 2005-01-05T15:36:00

2005-01-05T20:48:13Z

well well well.drama.but yet again.joy.gotta love it.anyways.stupid bitches keep runnin their mouths.which is weird that they talk online behind a computer.but not in person.oh well its all good.anyways..yes yes rumors are true.there indeedy is a party at miss. tokarz's house this saturday.hopefully itll be like her last party.well kinda.heh.need directions.hold up ill get you bitches a linkkk

http://www.mapquest.com/maps/map.adp?country=US&addtohistory=&formtype=address&searchtype=address&cat=&address=32223%20Lancaster%20Dr&city=Warren&state=MI&zipcode=48088%2d1307&searchtab=home

yeah click that..loll.sorry jackie..loll but we have to have a after new years party.hopefully it wont be as crazy as the last one..but it was still pretty tight.dont deny that.loll. much love to you. bahh.well anyways.everyone should definitly attend.it will be exciting =)

all for now..love to my cuppy cake <3

la de da de da doooooooo

new years eve!!

2005-01-01T15:03:41Z

woah last night was crazy like hughesy said it was.all around it was a good night though. saras basement was so trashed after everyone left. nd i guess someone stole harness' perfume.nd some other stuff.they all told me. i felt so bad! whoever it is give sara her shit backkk!!!! but yay! its 2005! loll. stephanie got her hair done.it looks soo good.its like darker w. blonder highlights.not just all blonde.it looked real cute! love it Steph!! Brittany Lehaie nd Jackie Atonette were there nd Stef michaels was pretty pissed.i guess she said somethin to brittany nd she didnt say anything back..nd nate was there.little weird being by him.but we talked.w.out arguing which is good. anywhoooo-yesterday i went to visit robbie =/ it was so funny cuz cindel fell down the stairs. so her butt hurt..nd me nd cortney were standin there like by his grave..nd then cindel walks up holdin her but nd goes ROBAYYYYY! MY BUTT HURTS! it was so funny.guess ya had to be there.but it was.then we were countin our money to see if we had enough for mcdonalds.apparantly not so we just came back here. kyle nd sam were together last night..which is good and bad.cuz i think hes an asshole.but she likes him so its all good. tanning! i need to go today.i wanted to go bowling or play pool.but oh well.but little kiddies. thats all for now. talk to everyone latuR! =)

x0 love youuu

All better

2004-12-30T20:06:57Z

welp.went to the doctors today.once again.nd they tested me fer step-it was negative nd i have my voice back.which is good.so tomorrow i get to go to harness'.just dunno if i can do anything after.which would be really super gay.but depends on what kinda mood dads in..Steph came over last night.spent some quality time w. the ex faab fiive member. loll. today i think im just gunna go tannin.nd bum around the house.still not feelin 100% =/ thenn..tomorrow danielles commin over we're gettin ready nd then goin to harness' =) yay. new years eve 04-new years 05. gunna be funnn! well all for now..im gunna go take a nap!!

later munchkins. !

sick once again

2004-12-29T17:53:29Z

yay.im sick again.happy happy joy joy. i feel fine now..i just lost my voice.its awful.i cant even say yes or no..but i can kinda whisper =) which is good. um.yesterday me nd sam went to sommerset on a little shopping spree.baught some hollister nd AF stuff.then some stuff for mommy. nd she got an outfit from hollister.nd some other stuff..BLAHH this christmas was gay w.out robbie.i miss him soo muchh..i was lookin at like his baby pix all the way till he was like 17..tracy had em in her desk nd some were on the computer..man he had so much to live for.ahh..sore subject-so lets talk about a new one..anyone have plans for new years eve?im suppose to go to harness' party.but if i cant talk i think we'll have a problem..i went tannin yesterday.baught a new package.which is good cuz i look pretty pale right now..well..all for now.

later gatersss

friends only updates

2004-12-27T16:52:11Z

theres friends only updates tooooo =] just tellin yas! Visiting robbie today w. cortney nd cindel. im excited i havent been there in awhile.well all for now..toodle lou youngsters

Ho Ho Ho youngsters!

2004-12-26T05:41:24Z

Christmas*

did everyone get what they wanted from santy clause? i gotta lotta good stuff

new prada
lotsa money
lottsa hollister nd ae clothes
aero sweats
august-hollister.love it!
paris hilton perfume-love it too!
couple gift certificates for sommerset
gift certificate for DSW.gotta love that store!
gift certificate for AF
new system for my computer.yay.love thattt!
clothes
money

idk stuff like that..it was a hard day on all of us..im sure it was the same on gabes family.<3 ya Gabie! but..dale [ryans dad, robbies um..adopted dad] came by to pick ryan up.and you could just tell he was a mess.his eyes were puffy nd red. and he did the most out of like anyone to help robbie.nd he took him in as his own and for that to have to happen to him.he feels pretty bad..he gave me a big hug nd its like..you cant say oh hey hows it goin cuz thats just like ignoring the situation.nd its a buncha bs. you dont wanna say like.its gunna be okay..cuz then its like..sad ..all over again.it sucks..today was just hard.lotta tears.tracy was upset all day of course.i think we all were. anyways..tomorrow.going to visit robbie.then xmas w. tracys dad..thats it i thinkkkk..oh funny story ladies nd little boys..today me, my dad, nd my brother were driving to my grammas for dinner..

dad: look that gas stations open. guess its not the arab xmas

me: theyre like roman catholic or somethin like that

brother:we're roman catholic idiot

me:oh

brother: you know how the pope lives in the (whatever he lives in, i fergot the name) in Rome

me:i thought the pope lived in italy

moral of the story-im a jackass =)

nuh night all. x0

hush_x0x @ 2004-12-23T20:23:00

2004-12-24T01:30:07Z

You Are a Losing Lottery Ticket!

Full of hope and promise.
But in the end, a cheap letdown.

What Crappy Gift Are You?

well looks like ima be doin good this xmas w. my losin lottery ticket.HA

KELLY
K	is for	Kinky
E	is for	Enthusiastic
L	is for	Lively
L	is for	Logical
Y	is for	Yummy

What Does Your Name Mean?

i love those things.i remember when we'd make em to our friends in like 4th grade.quik example:
a-adorable
m-mom like
a-asshole! ha jk manda! <3 ya
n-noisy-say it LOUD say it proud
d-darling
a-asshole-yet again.hehe.

had to use amanda as an example.she was like my only friend in 4th grade.lol

You Are Green Bean Casserole Soda

Vegetarians taste better!

What Jones Holiday Soda Are You?

ew wtf is that shit. loll.the dog is cute.but greenbean casserole? ewww..never drinkin that again.i hope jones goes outta business for that one!!

well.i had nothin better to do but quizzes.so theres the results.heh

hush_x0x @ 2004-12-23T20:17:00

2004-12-24T01:17:40Z

You Were Very Naughty This Year!

Naughty, naughty! You've given Santa a broken heart.
You probably won't get anything from Mr. Claus
Except for a well deserved spanking
(Which you'll probably enjoy, you sicko!)

Were You Naughty or Nice This Year?

comment-tell me if you think ive been naughty or nice this year

[i personally think ive been nice =) ]

mommy dearest

2004-12-23T19:00:05Z

my lovley mother nd i are fighting.once again.yay.gotta love it! anywayssss..jessica got in a car accident today =/ i hope shes gunna be okay.well i know she is.heh.but her car.ahh.time to buy a new car =) Sean got in some trouble last night i guess.but thats none of you munchkins business.heh. like my new icon guys.its rob! lmao he thought he was hot shit. i miss him.me nd sam still gotta wrap his xmas present.then we're gunna take it to the cemetary nd give it to him.which will make me happy.cuz if i didnt get him a present itd be really weird.yanno? im at moms office right now.helpin her w. stupid stuff =/ woopdededoo! my meal today consisted of 3 hot dogs.man oh man im gunna be a big'n one day. i talked to cortney last night.which is always pleasureful.shes a funny girl.then talked to jackie she was at her moms doc. getting checked for breast cancer.i hope everything went well =) my mom had to do that last year.man oh man she said it hurtt! christmas is gunna be here in 2 lovley days.woohoo! then...NEW YEARS EVE PARTY AT SARA HARNESS' =) ahh shes sucha cutie pie.its gunna be funnnn.. everything latleys really been pissin me off.arh! i was pretty upset about some stuff the other night nd i talked to jon nd he reminded me of robbie.it felt so good to be able to talk to someone who actually cared like rob did. spent a shitload of money on shoes. if rob was here.hed beat my ass for spendin that much on shoes that id only wear like once. ha. well all for now.must go help mamamia. x3 love

DramaDramaDrama

2004-12-23T02:17:54Z

well the drama continues.we wont talk about that though..well i spent like $200 on shoes.which is just FABOLOUS! ha yeah right cuz now im broke! anyways. i went to the dentist yesterday morning cuz of my tooth.nd he said i needed a root canal. joyness! ha. no. so i went to the endodontist nd he said it needed to be takin care of immediatly.so he sat down nd got to work.after 18 shots of novacaine.it was numb. and he drilled like my whole friggin tooth.man oh man.that didnt tickle. it was actually funny cuz after since the whole left side of my mouth was numb. i couldnt talk.i looked like a retard. oh well. its all good. he gave me a persription to take if the pain got bad.it hasnt been that bad. which is good. i just cant open my mouth real wide nd its hard to chew.no hard foods yet =/ ahh gay. well.i went to the mall w.sam. mike. nd phil.me nd sam got rob a xmas gift. im gunna wrap it nd put it under the tree.then take it to the cemetary for him. :sigh: marry christmas rob!

well.all for now.i get my braces off jan. 10th.yay. i think i said that in my last entry.if not.oh well im sayin it again =)

macoroni nd cheese time ladies nd little boys. yay.im soo hungry..heh

x3 love

funny day

2004-12-20T22:10:31Z

well.today i had fun.lotsa funny convos.here they are...

Auto response from babiixbo069: awhh i they all make me soo happy.:-)

stephanie baranowski------
kelly parakevin===
danielle anderson------

^we feel so proud! yay

Hugger Orang SS: hello my shining star
xmezsmerizsed: hello my um.night owl!
xmezsmerizsed: lol
Hugger Orang SS: lmao
Hugger Orang SS: so...my shining diamond of love...wuts up
Hugger Orang SS: my sparkling diamond of love*
xmezsmerizsed: um nothing my uhh..heart of the ocean saphhire
xmezsmerizsed: lol
Hugger Orang SS: lmao!!
Hugger Orang SS: wow
xmezsmerizsed: im bad at this..
Hugger Orang SS: its ok sweet dove....
xmezsmerizsed: okay my um ferrit
Hugger Orang SS: haha ok im done i cant take it anymore
xmezsmerizsed: lol i know im soo bad at the whole lovey dovey shit
Hugger Orang SS: ya me 2
xmezsmerizsed: hold upp
Hugger Orang SS: holding

Auto response from xmezsmerizsed: gettin//foldin clothes

man oh man.me nd chris are the two most goofy people.gees oh petes.

llx BL0NdE xll: u told me dickface
xmezsmerizsed: lmao
xmezsmerizsed: lmao oh yeah
xmezsmerizsed: damnit
xmezsmerizsed: always get caught in lies
llx BL0NdE xll: loll
llx BL0NdE xll: don't even TRY to pretend
xmezsmerizsed: damnit
llx BL0NdE xll: haha

im obviously not good keepin my OWN secrets!

back to the jackie convo..

xmezsmerizsed: its like winnin a grammy to be in jackie tokarz's away mess!

ahhha.. what can i say :-P.

but noo joke. these qurls
have been here for me no
matter what stupid thinq
i did. they've alwaysss
helped me and i couldnt
ask for bettter friends.
thanks u quys :-D

lmao thats her away mess.

all for now.love you JACKLYNN TOKARZ, DANIELLE ANDERSON,STEPHANIE BARANOWSKI,ND CHRIS RAAD!!!

lmao everyone else-mad love for you too!!!!

gotta new secret :shh: its topsecret

cleaning day

2004-12-19T21:17:41Z

yay.today i woke up at like 10:30 in a cleaning mood.which is good cuz that mood only comes like once every few months.so i cleaned like all day.my whole room.yay.then talked to dustin.hes sucha sweetie.ahh.then did my hair.now im all dressed up w.nowhere to go.thinkin bout givin jess a call.or someone to come do somethin!! called nd ordered a new fone.they only ship em on like business days [mon-friday for those asses that dunno] so i gotta wait till like wed.or thursday or somethin for it to get to mee. wanna go shopping.only the mall closes soon.so why bother..my little cousin erins commin over in just a TAD nd then tomorrow my schedule contains

-gettin a new tanning package for my lazy pale self =)
-possibly getting my nails done fer xmas. dunno if i wanna fuck my nails all up again though =/
-i think im goin shopping w. erin//birmingham?//cosi!! yum!
-who knowssss =P

well.all for now.havent talked to nate since like yest. or friday or somethin.i fergot! well...later gaterRs

x3 later love

**ITS FREEZIN OUT!!

well well well

2004-12-19T03:45:35Z

well.comments havent been commin as much.good/bad? dunno. anyways.talked to nate.talked to dustin.ahh confusing shit! anyways.christmas-comming soon.yay! excited! nate nd natalia dont talk anymore i guess.cuz of me.[thats what he said at least]DAMN that sucks. =) ...ahh =(** haha.dustin did bad stuff last night which upset me.but.boys will be boys.

skippidy dippidy-schools out.whatta thrill! ahh miss robbie [nd yeah bitches i will talk about how i miss him cuz hes my brother. nd i DO MISS HIM. STOP RUNNIN YER DAMN MOUTH =)] first xmas w.out hims gunna be weird.there isnt gunna be anyone there to make fun of my eyebrows! ha! good times good times! talked to jessica today.shes doing good.which puts a big fat smile on my face.

pissy side of things-basement to new house is like a war zone! not done yet.which upsets me cuz that was gunna be my fav. part of the house. oh well.oh and im returning my sheets. =/ i want somethin like suede or like. darkkkkk red silk sheets.not like.orange red.

going shopping tomorrow-hopefully.anyone wanna join?? =) loll.well thats all for nowwwww

later love

lovin those commentS!

2004-12-16T22:24:48Z

lovin those comments! wow. its funny how people have nothing else on their mind cept for talk shit to someone younger than them nd think theyre hott shit. okay patty. me nd nate arent together. nobodys together forever. so get over it. what happends between me nd him. is between me nd him. not you. i donno why you would say stuff like that when me nd you were cool like a couple weeks ago? thats fucked up. i understand that you take yer family's side on everything i would too. but you have no fuckin right to say shit about my brother. as much as you don't like me or disrespect me. you shouldnt say it about my brother. thats fucked up. talk shit about me all you want. but you didnt know robbie. you never will. you didnt know anything about him so you sayin shit like that. its bull.

and whoever is the other person sayin shit. why dont you just fuckin say yer name because what yer doin is wrong too. so fuck you too!

-all for now. people just need to mind theyre own business nd then there would be no drama in cousino. yay.

toodle lou kiddies

**whoever keeps postin annonymous. even if yer stickin up fer mee:-D say who you are

single once again

2004-12-11T06:00:07Z

well me nd nate broke up. i guess he was talkin shit about me to candice. so. yeah now..people are tellin me hes hookin back up w. natalia his ex girlfriend. yeah that really pisses me off! thats really fuckin low. of both of them. nd until i talk to them nd see if its like true..then they can kiss my ass. yep ..highlight of my week.. ! ha! have been talkin to someone else though. possibly like him..so thats good i guess..since i just dont add up to nates dream girl.. oh well. but yeah. my internets bein all stupid. so im on mamas laptop. its a mac nd i have no clue how to work it lol anyways ..candice pressed charges against jessica. which i thinks hillarious when candice made the first move on jess. but oh well. im not even gunna get into that. its all fuckin stupid. if people are gunna fight. they should be able to do it one on one. thats just my opinion. on the brighter side of the rainbow-we're gunna be fully moved tomorrow afternoon. yay. my pretty satin sheets will hopefully be in by next weekend when im there. then we can paint my walls RED. yay! im excited. our new number is 573-7656 im pretty sure. not yet though. so add in yer cellulars everyone! heh. went to the doctors on wednesday and they said i should stay the rest of the week off cuz my ammune system is low and i should ware down my body so quik. or somethin like that. so i get to go back monday. then we're off friday for break. so ill get just TONS of school in before the new year. heh im goin to grammas tomorrow i think. havent seen her in like forever so. im gunna help her decorate the xmas tree. fun. then me nd momma are goin to sommerset for a little shopping spree. thatll do us both some good. we've been fighting alot latley so itll get our minds off things. well all for tonight. love you................

hush_x0x @ 2004-12-04T21:08:00

2004-12-05T02:13:58Z

today. went to go see robbie at the cemetary. dont really wanna talk about that. anyways. new topic! jess came over nd i was packin up all my shit to move. nd gave half of it to her. merry xmas jess =) lol.

yup nate didnt come over last night cuz its his brothers bday nd he didnt have a ride. oh well. hopefully i'll be able to at least see him sometime this weekend. geez oh petes! its startin to really piss me off! joy.

i packed up all my shit to move. like..all of it. . my whole room is packed. yay. movin it all out thursday. thursday will be the last day we ever get to be here =( oh well. new house. new beginning. it could be better for all of us. welppp..thats all for now

peace love nd kids.

Nate<33 *even if you dont come over*

hush_x0x @ 2004-12-03T23:11:00

2004-12-04T04:20:15Z

well exciting night we have here. at least me nd jackie are cool now. which is good cuz shes still like my bestfriend. =)

-tomorrow me nd jessie are gunna go visit robbie. gunna be sad. but hey. i need it..reality needs to kick me in the ass. so..but it seems me and cindel both had weird dreams about robbie..

TooSweetForJust1: it was just that he was back and we all snuck over there and his mom found us and i told him that my heart hasn't been there since he left but now ur back soo its back and he smiled (it was the greatest smile i've ever seen from him and that made me want to kiss him and i kiss him and he was like kiss me again and it was just werid.. but a good weird
xmezsmerizsed: in mine.. he like told everyone what he was gunna do. and he was gunna leave town to do it. so we woudlnt have to put up w. the funeral nd everything. nd everyone was just like okay bye rob. like nobody cared. and he hurt so bad that nobody cared about that. nd then he came to me last. nd i was like okay..nd then i came to my senses nd i was like woah this is real (kinda how i felt when he first died, i was like okay no big deal. i was shocked yanno. i wasnt thinkin. now its like woah hes really gone) nd so i went back to him..nd i like held on to his leg or something. nd i was like please dont robbie please. nd he was like im sorry. but im hurtin so bad kell you gotta understand. i wanna stop all this. im just a fuckup nd everything. nd i was like no..i love you soo much i dont wanna have to live w. out you. and hes like i love you too. nd our friendship means alot to me..im sorry but i have to go now. you have to let me go..nd then he like turned to a ghost or somethin cuz he was just able to walk through my arms..and he was like im so sorry..i love you..nd he kept like floating away
xmezsmerizsed: awh
TooSweetForJust1: awwww

yep so they were both pretty weird...and then fitzy was thinkin he was gunna die in a car accident..

mirraflairidr: my lil guardian angel
mirraflairidr: n blazer

haha.. yes i'll always be yer angel fitzy. bffe! hehe. man im a loser. i got too much time on my hands like sam says...

well i'll let everyone know how the "robbie visitation" goes. =(

x33 you nate!

yay. home on a friday night. joy

2004-12-04T01:55:49Z

yay. its friday and im home. wopee. isnt that awesome! pff. yeah. hughes is havin her bday party tonight. nd i really wanted to go..only since im "sick" i cant. omgsh thats so gay! arr!

on the brighter side of things-nates commin by later to watch gothika w. me. yay. hes gunna be so scared. teehee. its his brothers bday though. so hes havin like cake nd icecream nd stuff then after i guess is when hes commin. which is good. i havent seen him since like last wed. arr! that makes me sad. oh well.

victor is goin to sams. i love you sam-an-tha. (3 sylobals hehe)

ahh well im gunna go..talkin to my loves [nate nd sam] online. much more important

x3 much love to nate bell =)

sickk

2004-12-01T23:00:05Z

yay well. i have mono =( so i cant go back to school till monday. out from monday to monday. joy. anyways. i made xmas presents. awh so cute! anyways. i miss nate so much.! i wanna go to school ! woah never thought i'd say that. but hey! its all good! well im gunna go nap some more. yay.

love you nate bell!

well well well

2004-11-28T21:54:39Z

Today was just OH SO EXCITING . not really. i watched gothika, it put me to sleep. so that was good. i took a little nap nd woke up. talked to Dustin online. someone stole his phone =( i know how ya feel dustin! its okay!!hes sucha sweetie though. since i was sick today nd wasnt really. alive nd happy nd yanno. i was sick so yeah. and he made me happy =)

cRuNk NtHe 5 8 6: your awesome

yay! yer my hero Dustin =) hehe.

anyways. then we took the doggie to petsmart. that moron was scared. he didnt even wanna go in the door. but once he finally did. everything was okay. nd he was lookin at like little doggie treats nd stuff. it was so cute.

then i came home nd i was readin Danielles l//j . so i figured i'd update mine. joy!

well thats all for now. im gunna go lay back down

-after while crockadile ;-)

Sickk

2004-11-28T15:44:34Z

Ah i dont feel good at all =( still havent talked to nate. that cant be good. But i did talk to cortney yesterday. havent talked to her in a long time so it was good. i couldnt sleep at all last night. kept dreamin of stupid stuff. seemed real nd i got freaked out so i couldnt fall back asleep.. anyways..i go back to moms today. joy. thats all for now..

much love

omg found the cutest pic of tinkerbell!

2004-11-28T04:50:34Z

omgsh i found a cute pic of tinker bell . so i figured id share ittt =)

awhh thats to you nate! haha

okay byebye!